This is what I have to ask myself lately. Things have happened and that’s okay, but why do things that should make me happy only piss me off? I am not going into details because that just isn’t who I am. I shall just continue to pray for God to give me strength and wisdom as what I need to do. If something is wrong, then you should let people know what is happening, not let them think all is good. If things are bad then you should let them know just how bad they really are. I know that this post seems really negative, but I just needed an avenue to vent and since this is MY blog that is exactly what I am going. Things were going pretty good at work until just recently and now it is back to the same old crap, just another verse. Today he started with the “I don’t know how much longer we can last” crap. This is not what I wanted to hear while trying to adjust things in my life getting ready to lose the Oak Leaf income. I can’t imagine what the future holds if something happens with my full time job. I have been applying for different jobs like crazy but nothing has materialized as of yet. I know that we shouldn’t question God for the things that happen but it is becoming increasingly hard to not just get down on my knees and scream WHY at the top of my lungs.
praying for you! love you, mark!