Random Thoughts

Have you ever just felt that if anything else gets dumped on you that your chest would explode? That is the feeling I have lately, I just don’t know what else I can take.

So I know that it’s been way too long since I have posted on here. I really want to say that I will do better but I don’t want to lie. So let’s play catch up. I have not had a dip of Grizzly since 11-09-09 and it feels AMAZING !!! I celebrated 20 years of marriage to Amanda. (Can’t believe she put up with me this long). I took the assessment test for Toyo Tire so we are praying BIG PRAYERS for that one. The job scene has NOT gotten any better. As a matter of fact things just keep getting worse. We were give a $40 a week pay cut as a Christmas present. Yay for me. It’s gonna be alright though, if he needs it more than me he can have it. He is the one that has to sleep with that on his mind. We have been looking at some houses in the Adairsville area. The one that we really liked, our landlord/agent wouldn’t let us move in because he couldn’t verify the guy was paying his payments. At least he is looking out for us and said that he WOULD get us a house in Adairsville. I am pumped about starting classes later this month online at Liberty ! I have been working on my resolution for this year, that I started a little early ( No carbonated beverages of any kind). It’s not too bad so far, but it’s only been like 5 or 6 days so far. I really dread returning to work in the morning, but I have to make the best out of a bunch of poop. Well that is enough blabbering for tonight.

Oh my goodness, all this financial aid stuff gets confusing. Why can’t things just be simple? I am afraid I will do something wrong and then mess all my stuff up, and then I couldn’t pay for school at all……

Yep that’s right, I am headed back to class in January. Well, I am not going anywhere, I am actually taking online classes. After much research about schools that offered distance learning, I chose Liberty University. I really like what they stand for and am honored to have been accepted to the program. I don’t know how long my degree is going to take yet because they are checking my transcripts to see what if anything will transfer. All I know is that I am excited that I took the first step toward getting an actual degree. I will try and keep you updated after classes begin. My goal here is the same as it was when I attended North Metro, 4.0gpa. I maintained the 4.0 status the entire time I was at NMT and hope to keep it up while taking classes for Liberty. Say a little prayer and let’s get this party started.

This is what I have to ask myself lately. Things have happened and that’s okay, but why do things that should make me happy only piss me off? I am not going into details because that just isn’t who I am. I shall just continue to pray for God to give me strength and wisdom as what I need to do. If something is wrong, then you should let people know what is happening, not let them think all is good. If things are bad then you should let them know just how bad they really are. I know that this post seems really negative, but I just needed an avenue to vent and since this is MY blog that is exactly what I am going. Things were going pretty good at work until just recently and now it is back to the same old crap, just another verse. Today he started with the “I don’t know how much longer we can last” crap. This is not what I wanted to hear while trying to adjust things in my life getting ready to lose the Oak Leaf income. I can’t imagine what the future holds if something happens with my full time job. I have been applying for different jobs like crazy but nothing has materialized as of yet. I know that we shouldn’t question God for the things that happen but it is becoming increasingly hard to not just get down on my knees and scream WHY at the top of my lungs.

Okay it has been a while since the last update but I will try to make it quick and painless. Working at the restaurant has gotten easier the past month, but now some people are starting to act crazy again. Oak Leaf is AMAZING, but due to financial situations, I no longer have a job there. It really SUCKS, that was a HUGE part of my life and my walk with God. I am still gonna help out some, but not in the capacity that I have been, since I was there every chance I had. It has been a hard adjustment for me, and now I have to figure out how to supplement my income. To say we were struggling while I had the extra income would be an understatement, now I have to figure out how to keep from drowning. We will survive somehow, God will take care of us. So there you go, that is my life short and sweet.